Monday, June 18, 2007

Phobia

Phobia: An unreasonable sort of fear that can cause avoidance and panic.
Phobias are a relatively common type of anxiety disorder.

Okay, so a little before I turned 30, I started working on my fears... I don't think I have that many, and most are mild... This particular phobia is one of the bigger ones... I know the how and when and the who and where... Over the years tho, it compounded, growing in on itself, to almost crippling levels... Complete avoidance, panic, and anxiety... To the point of not going to pool parties, going out with friends on the lake in a boat, even laying out by the pool had it's anxious moments, I would make excuses and generally avoided those situations... I'm talking about Hydrophobia (fear of water).
Yesterday, I took my first steps in conquering this fear... I had my first swim lesson... It was awesome, I did a lot better than I thought I would, and had fun doing it.
It fascinates me how much of our lives are controlled by a single thought (I can't)... I never said it once during class, or thought it... I opened myself up to the possibility of I CAN... and I did...
What an amazing feeling... I'm not over my fear, but I do feel better, about being in water... We will see what the next class holds... Now I know, I Can do it...
Besides, who doesn't want to look at or like this... Sue... Want to join me? ;)

22 comments:

Christopher said...

Good for you!...and would it kill ya to post some Speedo pics of yourself?...Sheesh!

...and please don't ask me to do the same...your stomach isn't strong enough to handle that imagery...trust!

Steven said...

I have the same phobia! Cold water on my face and neck makes me panicky. I'm impressed, I dunno if I could do that!

franck said...

it took me years and years and years to get over my fear of water. i'm still not completely comfortable in water, but i even took a diving course last year... so be patient with yourself!

Not so Single Guy said...

Mate..I need to get over my phobia..thanks for the story

Shaney said...

One step at a time...No matter the size of those steps...huggles stud!

P.SI just wanted to let you know you have been TAGGED for a meme...*pokes tongue* Check my blog for details babe!

Wayne said...

Mine's SPIDERS! But I to have been s.l.o.w.l.y trying to get better. It helps I love gardening, so I'm around them more.
Good luck with it.

Rick said...

Those boys would calm my phobia real fast!

G Cracker said...

I love water, I've never understood having a phobia of it. I think you're going to find you *love* swimming...

...'sides, you're right that it gives you more than ample time to look at swimmers! Yum!!

Sue said...

I would love to join you Syn!!! I love the water. Together we could swim under all the hotties and check them out! So study hard, and get ready for me!!!

J. David Zacko-Smith said...

You deserve a ton of credit for facing your fear - BRAVO! When do we get to see the bathing suit photos? *WINK*

SYNRGY said...

Christopher:LOL... Me in a speedo... Not today, Maybe next summer...

Steven:You can.. When you're ready...

Franck:Thanks Franck, It's nice to know I'm not the only one...

Not so single:No worries... I'll keep you guys updated... It's fun...

Shaney:Thanks :)... I'm working on the Tagged bit... Bitch :)

Wayne:Thanks Wayne... Good luck with the spiders...

Rick:No doubt Rick... I'm sure they would love to take Bandit for a walk on the beach... ;)

g cracker:Your right... There were quite a few hotties at the pool where we were training...

Sue:I don't know Sue... They would be so enamored with you... Oh we love Sue... She's Awesome... Syn who? :P

j. david:Thank You... Like I told Christopher, maybe next summer... You really don't want to see me in a "man-kini"... Not right now anyway LOL

Sue said...

Synrgy - you are so full of it.

David said...

well u definitely have a lot of motivation to dive in the pool now... lol

SYNRGY said...

David: Right... I would... ummm, swim with any of those guys...

dirk.mancuso said...

I can't swim, either.

But my intense fear of feet -- my own included -- prevents me from even considering swimming lessons.

Jessica said...

I'm terrified of water animals. I'm even afraid of sharks in indoor lap pools.

SYNRGY said...

Dirk: You are such a freak... Now get out there and take some lessons!

Jessica: Look Out! It's gonna getcha LOL (southernese)

Donnie said...

Congrats on taking the first steps to conquering your phobia...that's the sign of true strength. :)

BTW, I came over to your blog (very nice) via Doug's Unnatural Devotions.

Shaney said...

Hows the tag bit coming...lol
signed your friendly biatch!

SYNRGY said...

Donnie: Thanks for coming... er I mean stopping by... Welcome :)
Fear grips us all in one way or another, its all in how we handle it, I hope I can conquer it totally... Thank You :)

Shaney: Biatch... I'm working on it... I may stretch it out... maybe 1 a week... what do you think ? I know do it, get it over with... Fine, I'm all over it... :)

Doug said...

Congrats! You've faced your fear of water as well as your fear of meeting porn stars, now if you can combine the two . . .

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