Well... That Wasn't Awkward.... PT.1

Last week, after being called an Uber Bitch, and the Category 5 ShitStorm in Alabama,(I seriously need to post both of these stories) I decided this was going to be a better week... I'm gonna lay low for a bit...
Monday, I go to the salon to clean my station, return calls, and confirm my appointments for the following day... I have a msg to call Scott, I'm assuming a client wanting to get in... I dial...
Voice- Hello
Syn- Is Scott available?
Voice- This is Scott
Syn- This is Michael from (My Salon)...
Voice- Michael... this is Scott...
Syn- (shit)
I recognize his voice then... It's the 7 year X... it was a bad break. He was controlling, and manipulative... I was young and stupid... About 5 years into our relationship... It started going bad... Scott became mean, nasty , and paranoid... mentally abusive (sometimes physical) and occasionally would accuse me of cheating (which I didn't, I don't believe in it)... but, we were working on it, and I loved him... In our 7th year, he took a job in Chicago... without talking to me about it first (he did that quite a bit, but on a much smaller scale) and in a month he was gone... He expected me to move as well... When I said no (which I should have done much earlier, about so many things) It was done... We haven't spoken since (so almost 7 years)... well till today...

Syn- Well... Hi. How are you?
Scott- Good... How are you?
Syn- Good.
Scott- I moved back to Atlanta.
Syn- Yeah, I know, Bern told me... (Bernadette is his Sister in law, she comes to me to get her hair done)
Scott- Well... the reason I called... I don't really trust anyone here to cut my hair, and I was wondering if you would mind doing it... Would you have a problem with it?

Let me stop here for a minute... He is a hairdresser... but, also does product education for a hair company... He knows hairdressers everywhere... even in Atlanta. My hairdresser sense is tingling...

Syn- No, not at all...
Scott- really ?
Syn- Sure... No problem at all...
Scott- Do you have anything this Thursday?
Syn- I have an 11:00 open...
Scott- Awesome... I'll take it...
Syn- Great... I'll see you at 11:00 on Thursday
Scott- Thanks Michael...
Syn- No Worries...

I hang up... wow... that was unexpected... not him calling (I mean it was, but thats not what I'm talking about)... my reaction... I wasn't sure if/when I talked to him again how I would react... Awesome, I guess that little bit of therapy after our breakup helped more than I thought... I felt nothing... absolutely nothing... No anger, bitterness...

Sorry for the long post... I had to break it up into parts...

As Always... Be Kind To Yourselves... I'm Fine Thanks For Asking...

Not So Much...

So... Not that much has been going on... Thats why I haven't been blogging much lately... So I figured I would give a little update...

The Funk is officially gone... I'm kinda back to my old self... YAAAAY!

I caused/started a Category 5 ShitStorm in Bama over the weekend... I was with my family...

According to one of my clients, quite a few of his friends, who are also salon clients... Think I'm a mean, hateful bitch... Thats funny.

Swim class is going really well... I found my rhythm for breathing... just gotta keep my head low...

What else... Oh Awesome news... I went down yesterday to the travel office, and had them get some prices together for my (much needed) vacation... It may be a city near you... ;)


As Always... Be Kind To Yourselves... I'm Fine, Thanks For Asking...

I'm Still Here...

I should apologize... I haven't posted anything in a while... I've been in a funk, that I can't seem to get out of... I also want to thank everyone for the kind words, while Jerry was in the hospital and after he passed... Thank You...

There has been a lot going on... About a month ago, my sister (Cinny) called to tell me that her hairdresser had quit and she wanted to start coming to Atlanta to get her hair done... She was here this past Saturday... I did my Sister's and Niece's hair, while my brother in law and nephew went to the movies and shopping... It was their first time in the big gay hairdresser's Big Gay Salon... They don't come to Atlanta often... (the big city lol) It was nice, we went to dinner and then they left to go back home... I had been worried about my niece and nephew... Not knowing how they would react to my being gay, and given my surroundings... Well... My niece (19) already knew... Go figure, and my nephew (14) absolutely oblivious... After all he is me as a kid (LOL)... We had a good time tho... (YAY).

A few of my clients have been talking about the Landmark Forum... Self help seminars... Oddly enough one of my clients does the seminars and forum... With all this talk lately from my clients... I was thinking of taking the seminar myself... Maybe help me figure "me" out a little...
Here's the thing tho... I'm saving money to go on my vacation (more about that later) My nephew has been on me to get an Xbox 360 so we can play games and chat with each other from a state away... I can only do one... One will make me a Hermit... The other could possibly get me out and about (more social).... Hmmmm... Okay, so I bought the Xbox LOL... I have been having a blast... My nephew and his friends take great pleasure in killing me... Considering I taught him how to play video games, his favorite line now "The student has surpassed the teacher"... I'm loving every minute of it :)
I've been thinking, there are all types of people, some are more social than others... I am social, just in my own way... I don't have many friends, I work a lot, and I love my down time... I like eating alone, and going to the movies by myself... Call it what you will, and maybe I am just fooling myself... But, I think I'm okay :) BTW more than one person (thanks G-Boogie and Lizz) think that Landmark is a cult (allegedly) So I may have come out better with the Xbox360.


What else... I think that is everything, Oh... Swim class is going great... My form is good, and we started breathing, I had to get her to go over breathing again this past Sunday... It's all practice, practice, practice... I feel a lot more comfortable in water than I did, and when I don't worry about form and breathing, I relax and enjoy the freedom... Look out 2012 Olympics... I'm a little late for the 2008, they are holding the trials as I type this... Michael Phelps is in Beijing right now... One day... LOL
I think that is everything...

As always... Be kind to Yourselves... I'm fine, Thanks for asking.